| I could cry every night if I wanted to. In front of all this mess, not even hiding within it. |
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| This is the time of change. The time when we think the things we've never thought, say the things we've never dared to say. Dream the dreams that embarrass you. Where you do all the things you never thought you would and break the promises you were so sure you'd keep.
You fall in love with this idea that anything is possible. That's when changes happens. When you stop limiting yourself and learn to take life as it comes-- instead of planning.
Note to self: God's plan isn't flawless. |
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| you will think you knew me, and that you lost me. maybe you never knew me, maybe you never had me. maybe you just don't know what goes on deep. maybe it's unexplainable. maybe nothing could ever explain this. maybe I need to protect you. maybe I can't be there for you anymore. maybe all the things I wanted I never really knew about. maybe I'm not destined to be that. have you ever thought of that. deserve the world and more-- I'll always know that. what if this is the world?
this is me all along. I won't change. I'm going to keep doing me. just don't tell me who me is. |
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| NTS. Instead of praying for something new, pray for what's in front of you. |
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| I totally regret saying I didn't want to make any friends. The funny part is, so far I made really great ones. House 25 is amazing and I can't imagine myself living anywhere else, nor could I ask for a better place to live. I can't imaging living on Livi without my DH. Its' greatness is just a combination of everything-- the awkwardness, the ease, the hiding, the seeking, the open doors, the whole class on facebook during lecture, expos, Tillett, STFU study lounge+ crew, maccrew, staying up all night, sleeping in, the guys, the girls, our bathrooms, ordering Chinese food, reminiscing our childhoods, Wawa!.. just everything! .. everyday I'm finding someone to laugh with, someone to cry with, complain with, yell at, hate, love.. and everyday I find someone who is like me in a way! Whether it's a Catholic or someone who "strictly doesn't drink." I LOVE having my world have fallen apart this past week yet feeling too warm and surrounded by answers and shelter and refuge to cry.. I love love love it, and I couldnt've asked for a more challenging nor a better first month and a half of my first fall semester!
I also love missing my friends. Because when I see them after a long time, no words even need to be said, and no details are necessary to break the distance that time made. Just presence.
I love Rutgers.
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